michael jackson quote "i love you more"
Yesterday I carry the book Moonwalk autobiography by Michael Jackson only to honor him as a legend and as a person he is. i couldn't get over the shock of his death. but i stayed strong and tried not to cry. though my heart is heavy and see fans were not expected this at all. they were sobbing and weeping in every place of the globe. they looked up to him. this week was tragic enough. lately i kinda got headaches after i heard and crying about michael's death. fans on youtube were sobbing and not accepting the reality that king of pop who left the world unexpectedly. i 'm still shock, no one is ever going to think he will forever live. but life is too short, i breathe a second. i didn't sleep for like last two nights. i think his death took a toll on me in a way when i almost cried. i stayed strong and thinking mike is in heaven. i accept that. i accept that he is at peace. i missed him. i wanna thank him for everything he has done on this earth. it is too bad that i haven't got a chance to meet the man in the mirror in this lifetime.when a make a wish foundation came to my house,i told them i wanna see michael and go to disney world. apparently, i had a choice. i chose Disney world. i had a regret of not meeting mike in person. i always wanted to meet michael in person. yet i can't figure why i chose disney. but i told them i wanted to see michael. then i end up going to disney world. i should have chose michael instead of Disney world. then i kinda feel bad. yet still today i wanna meet king of pop. now i can't. he's in heaven singing and moonwalking with his idol James brown and Aaliyah,especially with the children. if i ever go to heaven, i'll be looking for him and give him big hugs. Jesus knows i will find him. Lord knows my heart has lots of love for him. i believe there is a heaven for every extraordinary soul who have done the world good, even bad. Lord loves everyone through mistakes and flaws, that is why he has a place for each person. like michael jackson, Lord gave him a place where his childhood is calling his name.a happy place where there are happy children playing and smiling. a place where there is peace and full of love. yet he's happy looking down at us missing everyone too. he also sings and probably saying that he's with the Lord. he's with all the beautiful souls. i am grateful that i listen to his music. i am thankful to know what kind of a man he is, and how how he brings too much love in the world. i love him a lot. through words of his death, i mourn inside my soul. it is shocking to hear the legend is gone. he is forever in our hearts and never ever, ever be forgotten. this is weird and strange without michael jackson living here on earth. i'm used to seeing a living soul whom touch my heart very deeply. now that he's gone, i picture him moonwalking for the Lord and christ. angels would moonwalk along with him....
i picture him as a ghost or more as a guardian angel who can help more people in the world, but he would been seen in the eyes of lost souls who needed help. if Lord sent him back down as an angel to help or bring the people to heaven. yet i hope i won't cry when i'm writing this eulogy. if somebody would read this and if somebody is a biggest fan or not, i promised the tears will spill out to his legacy. i couldn't believe he passed. michael is nothing but a superstar. he is loved by so many thousands trillion countless people all over the globe. everyone makes tributes to him everywhere. everyone loved him. everyone heavily LOVE him. i love him so much. i don't want to cry because my words for him from my heart, those are my tears.
michel don't want everyone to cry. he want everyone to be happy. he did
his job.

R.I.P mj

R.I.P Michael Jackson


again for Michael,

you are
really are
a magical child
who wants to fly
and lives in Neverland
i know
in your brown eyes
i see sunbeams and stars twinkle
while
tears wets your sick skin
a shy magical child
inside your soul
i saw him
coming out of you
and searching for your childhood
through crowds of angry people
i know
and i’m sorry that you have to live this way
being misunderstood by ignorance
but Michael,
i understand where you are coming from
i understand
i must call you a soul-magical child
who flies in every beating heart
my lovely moonwalker in the sky
and you don’t need to prove your innocence
cos you’re innocent
like the eyes of a beautiful baby Jesus

you are a child
a magical child
in a grown man body
through out the years
i know you have suffer enough
this is why you’re never alone
cos there is also somebody who grew up
without a childhood
feeling your pain, your heart
and it kills me when strangers walked the streets
brainwashing by prejudice of wagging mouths
only to believe lies and hate
this magical child in you
has a heart
that is the biggest and wider
than the universe
nobody sees it
how big, how wide
there are thousands, thousands of rooms
inside your broken heart
i manage to get inside your different world
your lifestyle

and people don’t think
they judge
basically they judge God
cos God is a magical child
who creates you
and let extraordinary multiple gifts fall
out of His hands into your black soul
you used them onstage
beautifully..

so beautifully,
everyone cried
worshipping your precious arts
when you gave your all
i wonder if they called you that magical child
cos i am calling you your true name
a magical child
who never runs, never hides
he’s in your eyes
in your sick skin

i felt that magical child in you, Michael
the true colors of your rainbow
the voice of spoken word
i hear you
i feel you, my magical child
from far away
bringing such magic
to my soul
when i hear your music
your own heartsongs
just even warms my chills

yet you’re only a
magical child
magical Peter Pan
who change and heal the globe
caring for all children
in each race
who are lost and never was found
in this harsh world

you are that magical child
that lonely man in the mirror
nobody gets you
nobody gets your beautiful world
but i do
i read your history
i stretch out your roots
and it breaks my heart
to see you
swim in your own lonesome

but again Michael,
you are never alone
you still have people
who loves you
unconditionally
you’ve brought the most
magical child in all of us

and that’s why
i love you, mike
you’re that soulful little
magical dark child
who brings sparks to
my beating heart---
~

© Kai C.